I’ve tried to change me as much as I’m willing to change.
I can no longer try to deny myself simple desires just for the sake of making you want me.
I will it say no more. I will not be punished that way. I don’t know what I want, but I refuse to have my rights to do so taken away from anyone.
I’m not the monster you or anyone else thinks that I am. I don’t like being lied to or manipulated. I’m an easy target it seems for this behavior. I learn to say, “No more. Enough is enough”, and once again I’m the problem. Not the actual problem.
You know I kind of feel numb again. No, I know I’ve gone numb again. Maybe I’ll just stay here, contrary to what I originally thought I’d do…