I’m not doing well right now. I’m feeling defeated. I’m feeling worried. I’m feeling scared. I feel like I need a hug and the only one whose hug will do is at work.
I’m working hard to silence the inner dialogue. Those of you who suffer with anxiety, depression, CPTSD, ADHD, you know what I’m talking about.
The inner negative is so bad.
“He can’t love me anymore I’m not worth it.”
“I’m too broken.”
“If I do the things I used to it might not be received well, it might look like I’m trying too hard to be me again. I don’t want to be called fake.”
“I’m not worth this.”
“Does he want me to do life on my own?”
“Does he want to do things with me, that I want to do?”
“Do they think I’m bad?”
“Does he miss me like I miss him?”
“Do they miss me like I miss them?”
“No they could never miss you like you miss them, because they’re happy to be away from you.”
Some days this is an all day battle and it takes so much out of me that it cancels the next couple days. I’m so exhausted. I’ll keep fighting it though. I just wish someone would remind me of the truth…